Another sleepy day… or “sleep drunk”, as the naturopath said. I’m basically exhausted all day. I shuffle out of bed in the morning because I didn’t even hear my alarm, eat breakfast, and I’m so &@^%ing tired that I fall back into bed for a nap and really can’t find a reason to get up. [...]
Archive for the ‘depression’ Category
Sleep Drunk
Posted in Health, Little Things, Thoughts, depression on April 17, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Bad Habits & Loneliness
Posted in Health, Little Things, Thoughts, depression on April 9, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
It’s incredible how bored I get doing certain things (like schoolwork), and how much out of my way I go to search for distractions. Play piano. Take a nap. Pet the dog. Write a poem. Write this blog. Right now, I am brewing green tea and baking gluten-free peanut butter cookies.
The problem with all the [...]
Perspective.
Posted in Culture, Food, People, Thoughts, Ultimatum, depression on April 5, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I think all you can really hope for in this life is adequate food and shelter, and the mercy of a loving God. A family to care for you is a bonus. Someone to love you is almost an unspeakable hope.
I look at the way so many of us live, myself included, and cringe. I [...]
SUNRISE, SUNSET, swiftly go the days.
Posted in Thoughts, depression on March 30, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
It’s amazing how quickly I get so depressed. Here I am. After 10pm. Medicated. Sedated (almost…yawn…). I feel like every day is a trial. On my good days I know I will have bad days. On my bad days I know I will have good days. But it is so, so heartbreaking to feel this [...]
Do Not Forsake Me, My Dear
Posted in Health, Thoughts, depression on March 15, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I have four weeks ahead of me to repair myself. Five weeks if you include spring break. I must somehow rejuvenate myself mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually… if only I had an eternity to make all of my wrong’s right… and focus on my right’s. Today when I went to my general doctor, she was a [...]
4-Week Thing?
Posted in Health, Little Things, Random, School, Starting Over, Thoughts, depression on March 11, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Ick. I don’t know what to do about that 4-week thing. Like last week when I made to those glorious days of school, I thought, “Yes! Like, I can totally do this! Just scrape myself together every morning and try, try, try!” Of course, those were rather good days. I look upon the last five [...]
How To Fight Loneliness
Posted in Health, Little Things, People, Random, Thoughts, depression, friends, music on March 9, 2008 | 1 Comment »
This unsettling feeling of being extremely happy and quite, quite depressed is really costly. I think I pinpointed this feeling to loneliness and it’s odd, because I would love to have someone with me here right now, but at the same time, I just want to be alone. I’m a bit distant recently and there [...]
Just Great.
Posted in Dizziness, Health, Lists, Little Things, People, Random, School, Thoughts, depression, friends on March 5, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Today seemed to solidify my suckiness—and all after making it through an entire day of school. My friends are fine—my friends are great. My teachers freak me out, the way some of them look at me. Some of them ask me how things are going, and I appreciate this immensely—it makes me feel like I’m [...]
Prom…ise?
Posted in Little Things, People, Thoughts, depression, friends on March 2, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I felt surprisingly great today!—considering it was symphony and CPA’s. But they weren’t as bad as I had anticipated—they never are, but oh well, I worry anyway. I was pretty happy and fairly energetic all day, I even exercised (is it cooler to say ‘I worked out’? lol…it makes me sound like I have muscles…which [...]
Thank you—no, really.
Posted in Family, Health, Little Things, depression, friends, music on February 29, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Today I went to an appointment that was next to pointless. Then I went and visited my grandma on a whim. I’m glad I did—she’s always really happy sounding when I call to say I’m going to drop by. She showed me a neat thing on her organ and how you can play Negro (is [...]
